Ah, the joys of being a fujoshi

yes that girl is me

It’s not everyday that we see a real-life BL moment, so I definitely know the feeling

Title: Urusai Kurai no Kokuhaku Kudasai

Mangaka: Sachimo

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Even fujoshis like me get tired…

…of reading yaoi/BL manga these days, to be really honest.

This is the very first time that I’m actually acknowledging this head-on, though I did mention this to my group of online friends (who are both gay and fudanshis) the other day. Our thread got distracted because immediately after posting that sentiment above I felt bad and tried to read any yaoi manga. I’ve read a few chapters, and ended up seeing a picture of a threesome (the 2 seme and 1 uke variety–which I really really like, it has to be this specific lol) and sending it to them. They laughed at me and didn’t think of my earlier post seriously. But the truth is, I’ve been holding on to these thoughts for almost a year now. I was just in deep denial mode all this time.

For the record I’ve only been reading yaoi for around 5-6 years. I was only in my 20s then, but definitely a late bloomer, and definitely a late comer, to the yaoi scene. Though I have a Twitter and a Tumblr, I’m not that updated to the goings-on in the yaoi scene. I’m not an avid fan, so to speak–I’m too poor to purchase merchs and physical copies of manga or subscribe to a streaming service. I attended a local yaoi con a couple of years ago (I bought tickets to the succeeding events the following years but I ended up not going). I have a job, but I only make enough to pay the bills and buy essentials. If I wanted to buy something, I needed to save for it for a couple of months, and even then I can’t buy a lot: I have to think looong and hard which stuff I will buy, not just because it’s cute, but also to consider what I titles I will continue loving and liking for years to come, plus there’s the issue of very limited shelf space. I only have a couple of yaoi manga at best, and I usually keep it hidden for the meantime. Most of my reading and watching are done online, but I’m slowly dipping my toes to purchasing licensed digital translations. I bought one so far and I like it. And I’ll be buying more in the future as long as I can afford it.

When I accidentally stumbled upon yaoi on Youtube, which maybe I could discuss on a separate post one of these days, it was like a storm that swept and carried me away. Thanks to the power of Google, I discovered yaoi as a genre–I watched some of the most famous (or infamous) yaoi anime around, read a couple of manga at first, and discovered some sites where I can satisfy my yaoi cravings. I fell into that rabbit hole. And slowly but surely, my brothers discovered their eldest sister’s new obsession. Well, I never denied it though 😀

As the years went on, I discovered some hidden gems (well, at least for me), but most of the manga are starting to look so much like a copy of another copy, of another copy. Before I find it amusing (and wanting to brag–but no one to brag on to lol) to guess who the mangaka is by just looking at a page of their manga/cover art, or perhaps guessing the title, or both. Over the years, more mangaka popped up with art styles looking more like duplicates. Their art is already so polished and clean, but looking so similar to other mangaka who entered the scene years earlier.

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